Filed under: Blogging, Seriousness, To Someone | Tags: catalyst, change, median, power shift
“It takes a catalyst to spark another power shift”
I’m changed.
It shouldn’t have taken something this serious to change me, but it did. A week ago I wasn’t, but now I’m glad it happened. Thank You. Thank You for the signs. Thank You for the watch, for the broken bracelet, for the new ones. Thank You for Her. I needed that. I’m changed. I’m changed.
Filed under: Seriousness | Tags: artist, BevMo, change, judge me, stereotypes
Why not? Everyone else does.
People assume they know me. When in fact I can only think of two people who may actually know me. One person who knows me more than I know myself (this blog is not for you).
Generalizations. Stereotypes. Grouping. Assumptions. I’ve fallen victim to them all. I’m lucky if I have a day when someone doesn’t judge me. Maybe I just don’t know myself very well. Wow, what a thought. You know what ma’am, yes you better clutch your purse a little bit tighter when I walk past you on the street, I’m not sure what I might do. And hey, BevMo employee, I AM pretty thirsty and broke you should probably keep following me around the store to make sure I don’t steal anything. Oh and thank you officer for following me around the Dale. I’m not doing anything right now, but if I break any traffic laws then you’ll be right there to try to book me for weed or weapon possession. Who knows, maybe one day I will have both in my car.
[Note: These are just only physical judging situations]
Riddle me this:
Can I not be politically Liberal and believe in God and the Bible at the same time? Is it a sin for me to be African American and not enjoy the music of Lil Wayne and stick with nothing bigger than 17’s on my ride? Is it too hard to believe that I can turn my slang/ebonics on and off, at will? And tell me, do I really look like a criminal with my Jethawks fitted and baggy jeans?
Before you judge, let me tell you who I am:
I am an artist at heart. I am creative. I am not necessarily book smart. But I know how to apply methods. Most importantly, I know how to change. I stick to my knowledge until it is challenged. And If given a valid argument, I can and will bend. That’s how I know I am not wrong.
Keep judging me. Even if you are right, you won’t be by tomorrow.
Filed under: Seriousness | Tags: bad, change, easy, good, mr hixon, signal flow, ugly
The Bad.
The Ugly.
Some things are bad.
I’m still ugly.
Thats besides the point though.
My life is changing rapidly. Especially in the last week or so. Things are moving fast. And I’m not quite sure I like how quickly they are moving. I cannot think that fast. So when I do have a few minutes to myself I wonder If I am making the right decisions. My schizophrenic counter argument is that I’m acting on my heart, which I also feel is important. Therefore I’m confused.
But I’m still chillin. Mr Hixon: Forget the 7 steps and VAPAA Careers crap. The most important thing I learned from that man is Signal Flow. He taught me to step back, and solve problems in steps. Follow the signal and find the source of a problem. In which case he was teaching me about live sound troubleshooting, I’ve been able to relate it to life. When I have time, I can detach myself from life and then try to figure it out. It works. And right now I’m using my skills to find the problem and avoid it!
Life is easy now.




2005-Beats for Everyone
2006-One Man Show
Coming 2008-Fixin the Shade



